The vanishing effect
I know that this may seem a little taboo of a subject, but my boobs are vanishing! Haha! I have heard about this type of thing for years, but I have never actually experienced it. Whether I lost weight or gained it, I never had my bra size go down, only up. However, now that I have lost 50 pounds and am a mother who breastfed a child, I have noticed my breasts shrinking. It may seem like a totally normal thing for most women, but I have never gone through this before. As someone who has always been correlated with having a rather large set of ladies, it is almost as though I have to reintroduce myself to my new, petite bosom.
Let me just put this out there so that you can better understand where I am coming from: by high school I was wearing a 32DDD and by the time I needed a nursing bra, I had to special order a size 32J. I haven't been able to see my feet for over a decade and I started wearing two bras at a time in 3rd grade. See what I mean? They (the ladies) have always entered a room before I did. People knew me as the girl with the big boobs as opposed to anything related to my name or intelligence level. My boobs became a part of my own iden-titty. My chest has dictated my wardrobe choices and need for camisoles with every outfit since I can remember. I have no memory of a time before them. Every dress I even think about buying has always been ruled by the question "can I fit my chest and bra in that?"
I feel like my entire life is actually changing. And I am rather excited. I feel like people might actually get to know me instead of just my breasticles. I still feel like I have my feminine qualities, but just with better packaging. There are so many changes in my body that are increasing my positive thoughts and view of my own body but I never actually thought that this would happen and I'm excited to see what my new bra size is and what tops I can fit into! Bring on the fun!
